Clueless.

For the past few weeks, I am so clueless on what is happening to my life. I never felt this way before. I don't what I really want and I don't know if that person is still part of my life. Time flies so fast and the next thing I know, the year is about the end. I will get older by next month and gonna celebrate my birthday again with my family.


I wish I could have spend my life the way I want it or the way my life should be. I really don't know what the future holds for me. I hope it will lead me in the right direction. I want to be successful, but in which path? Which career? Do I still see myself practicing my profession as a civil engineer? I really don't know. Yeah, I have plans for pursuing it but not totally as a civil engineer. I want to be an environmental engineer, until now, I haven't submitted yet the requirements for the graduate school. 


Love life? I don't know if he is still there for me. I haven't talked to him yet. I am really clueless right now. So clueless that I usually drink alcoholic beverages. Good thing, my team mates are there as my drinking buddies. I owe it to them when times like these. They thought that I don't have a problem with my love life, yes, I also have a problem with it. I'm not the showy type of person who is telling to the whole world that I have a problem. I just change my mood to adapt to my environment. I also owe it to my zodiac sign, I am a proud Libran. 


Oh well, life must goes on. I'll just cross the bridge when I get there. Hopefully, before this year ends, some of my questions should have been answered already so I will not be forever clueless.